I Blew It

I blew it big time. I had an audition for a major motion picture: lead role. It's such a long story, I am not in the mood right now to detail it... suffice it to say, I blew it. Not the audition. The writer/director liked me. But, at the end of the audition, I recommended another actress who I thought would be great for the part. I realized I didn't get the part when somebody told me they had started filming. Today, I bumped into the director and I asked him who eventually he went with. He told me the actress I had recommended!!! What the fuck.... He never called me to tell me and she never called me to thank me for recommending her. Well, I am not mad. I expect nothing from anybody. Shit happens. In my case, shit happens way too often and makes me believe every occurence and event in my day renders my whole existence to be a huge practical joke. (She better thank me when she wins her Oscar)
(People have asked me if I really wanted the part... Yes, I did. But I have issues. I have issues. It's complicated.)
Yes, John Irving. I will remember to keep passing open windows.

comment brought to the main screen:
Why on earth would you recommend someone else for a job you were going for, then be surprised that you didn't get it?
my reply:
I wasn't surprised I did not get the part. I sort of had a feeling he would go with another actress. I do not have experience. I recommended an actress who I thought would be perfect because I wanted his work to be cast with the best since I did have the feeling he would not go with me anyway... and honestly, I do believe she was the best for that role. I shared her name. She is phenomenal. I think it speaks volumes for ME that I had the best interests of the project in mind.
I was just disappointed when not one person called to thank me for recommending the actress who did get the part. And I was hurt that I was never called to be even an "extra" in even one small scene.